Aaaaaaaah

This whole patience thing is killing me.

It was hard to wait before when I didn't have the potential puppy lined up, but this is just torture. I want the end of the week to be here- but the end of the week also means the end of the June school holidays and only a few days off before going back to school, so that's annoying me as well.

Mixed in with the excitement is some anxiety, I will admit: once bitten, twice shy. But that's pretty irrational, so I'm squashing it down as much as I can and focusing on being everything but pessimistic and cynical for once.

And I know all of that anxiety is going to disappear once I have a healthy, happy puppy at home so it's just something I need to bear with for a bit longer.

We went to Composite class tonight- did a lot of tunnels, which made Charlie's week. It's times like tonight when I just can't help but look at him and think "What a bloody awesome dog"- but then he goes and does something balmy and I end up rolling my eyes and wondering what the hell I'm going to do with him. He's just oranges and apples all at the same time.

I'm hoping to get to the reserve tomorrow afternoon with the camera and mum to act as videographer, and do a bit of jump work and film an example of something I was explaining to a friend today (not very well, might I add). So fingers crossed for that.

I ordered- finally- a copy of The Focused Puppy and Control Unleashed, so I'm hoping they'll arrive at some stage either towards the end of this week or next week. I've got such an extensive list of things I want to add to my little library, and not the funds to make it a reality, but I'm really glad I've got these two books coming along.